Lolz I did this on Saturday and never posted it... and haven't been on the internets since then... so here be a survey! Yarrrr!

Are you going to be one hundred percent honest? Indeedy! 

The shirt your wearing, when did you get it? Hmm a few years ago I think, at Urban Outfitters. It's pink and has hearts on it and is starting to get holes in it, hehe, but I love it too much to let go of it yet!

Where do you work? Hmm, somewhere that makes me want to kill myself more than occasionally. Hehe. Just kidding. Kind of. But it does make me a sad, sad panda. Although... not anymore... hmm yes, I shall write upon work a little later...

If your girlfriend/ boyfriend broke up with you tonight, what would you do? Well, if I had a gf/bf to break up with me... I'd probably cry and drink myself to sleep. Hehe. But before I fell asleep, I'd most likely call Mindy and/or Julie for moral support.

Are you gonna be home tonight? Hmm well, I am going out to a movie with my parents at 5, but I'll be home for the night after that. I has not much of a social life these days, sadly, :( .

Has anyone gotten on your nerves lately? Hmm nah, not really. Some people from work, but I've gotten over all that by now.

Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, what do you say? James, do we need to hide a body? Hahaha, James used to be my next door neighbor, and I can't imagine anyone else would consult me at 2 am via window knocking. Oh boy, now that I think about it, that would be quite exciting!

Do you feel awkward when strangers say hi to you? Lol, well strangers don't tend to say "hi" to me. But I tend to feel awkward around virtually anyone I don't know very well, so yes, I suppose I would feel rather awkward. But I'd be quite very pleased nevertheless that someone I didn't know thought I was worthwhile to say hi to.

Do you hate being alone? Well, it depends. In some respects, no. I very much value my alone time, and there are times when I really need to be by my lonesome. But there are some times I really would much rather have pal company than be alone. But generally, nah, I like my alone time.

What do you usually do first in the morning? Hmm struggle to wake up and get out of bed? Lol.

Are you smoking a "cig" right now? Indeed I am not! I haven't had a cigarette for... uh... well, quite a while! Yay for me!

What happened at 3:00pm today? Hmm, I got home from the farmers market and ate a tasty plum?

Does your profile song have a meaning? We can have profile songs? For reals? Neeto! Lol, needless to say, I don't gots one.

Do you miss the way things used to be? Yes and no, I suppose. I miss good friends I've grown apart from over the years and the good times we had. Hmm I don't miss the awful relationships I've had in the past, though.

Do you care what people think about you? Oh indeed, very much so! I always have, and I really, really hope that some day I can stop caring so much. I mean, I definitely try my best to always be who I am, dress how I want, etc.... but I'm still scared about what people think of who I really am... though I try not to let that cause me to be someone I'm not. In other words... I'm me... but I'm always scared to be me, lol. Does this make sense to anyone else besides me? Hehe.

Did any particular thing brighten up your day today? Hmm perhaps the very nice cool-ish weather outside. And taking pictures! Yay!

What do you hear right now? The telly.

Do you miss anyone right now? Oh indeed, I miss quite a few people.

Do you have good memories with old friends? Ooh I have plenty of them! Aw, now I'm getting all nostalgic about old pals... bad survey for making me do that!

Do you get along with most girls? Hmm, well I'd like to say I can get along quite well with most people, besides being terrified of them, haha. The only thing that puts me off about some girls is that they can be drama-whores. But thankfully not all girls are like that, lol. So... I'd say, sure, I'd get along with most girls okay. But I probably wouldn't want to be close friends with most of them.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night lastnight? I don't believe I did. Usually, if I'm asleep I tend to stay that way for quite some time. Even during massive thunderstorms and such.

Who was your last IM from? Hmm I believe that was good old Larry, the last time we ever talked. He was mean. It was no fun!

Have you kissed more than ten people this year? Hmm... *counts on fingers and toes*... haha just kidding! Heavens no, of course not. I'm not a kissing whore! I mean, not that there's anything wrong with that. Lol. But that's just not for me.

Last time you were happy? Hmm... I'll have to get back to you on that, survey...

Were you single on your last birthday? Sigh, no, I was not. But alas, I expect I will be single for this year's birthday.

Do you talk a lot? Well, that depends allot on who I'm with and the mood I'm in. Around people I've just met, I'm terribly shy and quiet. Grr. But once I've gotten to know someone, I have no problem talking up a storm. Lol, not that I'm one of those people who has those one-sided convos where I'm the only one doing the talking. But sure, I like chatting a bunch and having a good conversation with a good pal.

Ever been in a situation where you had to be around your ex every day? Oh boy. No. Very, very thankfully I haven't. After I broke up with my most recent ex at college, I was terrified that I would see him around campus during the remaining month or two of school. But thankfully I didn't see him around *that* much. I did have to see him a few times though, and that was... rough. But luckily it wasn't on a daily basis.

Today, would you rather go forward a week or back a week? Hmm I don't know. Mayhap forward? Last week wasn't all too awesome, and maybe there is something worthwhile in the future. Sigh, I can only hope.

Is there anything stressing you out currently? Hmm nah, not so much. Well, just trying to figure out what to do with my life, hehe, that's a little worrisome.

Has anything shocking happened lately? Haha no, I don't believe so!

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants or pajama pants? Hmm how about: E. none of the above? I'm wearing a skirt! Woo!

Your ex says they never even liked you, you say? Hmm, I'd probably say, "Yes, well, that was apparent from how you treated me." Haha! Honestly, though, I probably wouldn't care all that much, since I don't still have feelings for any of them. And for serious, the way some of them acted it sure seemed like they never even liked me, lol. Even though I'm pretty sure they did at one point.

Is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to? Hmm yes, I like to believe that some of my really close friends that I have now will continue to be in my life for, uh, forever I guess. Sadly, I've grown apart from allot of my once very close pals over the years. However, there are a few people that I remain close with who I hope to keep forever!  Lol. My longest-known pal so far has been my next-door neighbor, James, who I've known since I was 2. So I'm hoping to hold onto that one for a while more, lol. And there are a few other people I hope to be friends with for years down the road. Honestly, I'm surprised with how much James and I have both changed over the years that we are still good friends like we are. I guess that's what I hope for all of my good friendships now: to be able to stay friends as we get older and change.

Do you like thunderstorms? Oh indeed, I love them! I mean... well, I don't like getting caught in the rain. But I love experiencing them from somewhere rain-free.

Has an ex ever wanted you back after they left you? Sigh, yes. The one ex I was able to stay friends with.

Do you feel you'll ever get back together with your first boyfriend? Oh heavens no!

Ever liked someone who treated you like crap? Hahaha! Tee hee, yes, many a folk. I believe though that most of those people I have discharged from my life now, luckily.

Is someone on your mind right now? Hmm my pal Julie. She just texted me a little bit ago.

If you could spend more time with someone you used to be very close with, who would it be? Lots of people! Most of all Mindy. I miss her greatly. Maybe also Julie and James. 

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone & what did you talk about? Hmm my mum. We were trying to decide on a movie to go see.

Are you listening to music? Nopes, but a little telly-vision.

Is there someone you used to talk to everyday but don't anymore? Lol bunches of people. 

Plans for Saturday? Hmm well, today my Mum and I shall go to this garden called "Chanticleer". I get to take pictures! Yay!

What's the weather like outside? Fall-like and glorious!

What are you doing tonight? Nuffin.

Who will you be sleeping with tonight? Hmm... Mr. Bunny and Orca... my stuffed animals... Lol... as always, I realize that I'm 5 years old.

Do you get mad when people smoke around you? Nah, not at all. It does, however, really make me wish I could join them. Lol, I think what makes me want to smoke the most is watching other people smoke.

Does it bother you when someone lies to you? Oh gods yes, I hate when people lie to me. I can't stand it. My first bf from high school was somewhat of a pathological liar. He lied about a bunch of stuff I know about, and I'm there's sure much much more that I didn't know. I consider myself to be a pretty understanding person, so I don't know why a few people I've known have felt like they need to lie to me. Sigh. I know I've been scared to tell people the truth before, because I was afraid they'd get angry or yell at me or something... so I try to make sure nobody feels scared to tell me the truth. I'd much rather hear a truth I didn't like than a lie.

Do you personally know anyone who's in a band? Nopes.

Are you single? Indeed survey... why do you inquire? Hee hee.

Do you read Perez Hilton? ...who? Just kidding, I know who he is... kind of. But no, I don't read his, uh, blog or whatever he does.

What are your thoughts on Disney Channel? Hmm you know, I never really watched it that much.

Are you afraid of the dark? Nope.

When was the last time you jumped on a trampoline? A very very long time ago. 

Don't you just love candy canes? Hmm well candy canes are all fine and dandy... but what I reeeealy love is candy corn! Yummy!

Are you the type of person that always has to have the last word? Uhh no, not at all.

Do you know anyone who's obsessed with Twilight? Hmm well the managers at Old Navy were obsessed. Hehe, it was kind of funny, especially since they were all fairly older than me.

Sex with more than 25 people? Are we talking about on a regular basis? Wouldn't that be kind of hard to manage? Hahaha, no, I don't think I'd like to come close to that in my life. I mean, I really try not to judge people who do that, because I've had overly promiscuous pals like that. I figure, if that's what works for someone, then that's all fine and peaches. But, uh, I'm just not going to date someone like that! Lol.

So. These past few days I've been doing some much needed musing upon my life.

The first thing I've been pondering is grad school.
I don't know... I've been so set on going next year, but I really don't think I'm ready.
I know I'm definitely not going to have enough time to figure out where I want to go and get in the necessary 10-15 applications in time.
And I don't think I'm entirely ready mentally to go back either. I don't know... I think I still need some time off to get over the burnout from college, and to get a clear idea on what it is I actually want to do... since I really don't know right now.

I've also been thinking allot about my new job.
I just... I really don't know if I can handle it. For serious, I'd much rather be physically and/or intellectually worn down from work than emotionally worn out. I can't stand dreading work all the time as I do now. Sigh. It just keeps me feeling down even when I'm not at work.
Also... I'm just not an authoritative person... and I really have to be to keep the girls in order... but I just can't do it. I don't think I have it in me. Oh I'm sure I'd be okay being authoritative with my own kids... but with these intimidating teens, I just can't do it.
But it's not just the girls... it's the staff, too.
I dunno, I just miss the days when I worked at Frederick's of Hollywood, or especially Old Navy, where most of the staff was friendly to me. Where I work now... well, I might as well be invisible sometimes. I hate it. I think working with a good group of people is just as important to me as what it is I'm doing for work. I mean, two or three staff... the new ones.... talk to me. But they're not always there when I work. Like yesterday. Everyone else is for the most part not very friendly toward me. Nah, they're not mean... just indifferent/not nice.
Another problem is that they don't tell me anything. Like... there's still so much I probably should have learned while I was shadowing, which nobody told me but which I'm expected to know. I don't know. I think I'll be spending allot of my free time now looking for a new job, because this one is just wearing me down. I don't know how much longer I can last.
Sigh.

I've been really really missing Mindy, too.
Well, I've been missing her quite a bit the whole summer. I think just knowing that I'm not going to get to live with her ever again has me really down. Especially now that everyone else is back at school again, and I'm not.
Lol I actually just got 4 cards to send to her. Lol, no, it's not entiiiiiiirely random... it is her birthday at the end of September. And I wanted to get her a Halloween card as well. I got them at Target, which I drove to all by myself for the 1st time around here! Lol, it's sad how proud of myself I am when I actually don't get lost. Okay... well, I cheated... Mr. GPS told me the way. Even though he lies! He often mixes up left and right when he says which way to turn, but his picture shows a a different way. Aaaaaaaaanyway, I made it there at last. I was hoping to check out their awesome Halloween section, but they didn't have it out yet, those bastards. But I did find those cards for Mindy and a bunch of stickers, so it turned out to be a good Target trip. 

I also really very much miss having close friends near me.
Sure, it's nice texting and talking on the phone and such... but nothing beats being able to spend time with people in person.
Sigh.
Well, my pal Julie's been bugging me to visit her in her new apartment for a while, so I think I'm going to try to visit next weekend since I work this weekend.
I think it'll do me some good to have some quality time with a close pal.

I've also decided that I need to banish myself from facebook, hah.
Not that I go on there that much anymore at all.
But every time I do go on there... I always leave feeling kind of down.
I dunno... I just need to stop checking up on people, because it makes me miss a few people I shouldn't be missing. And reminds me of a few people I really just need to forget.

Oh! But there's one good thing going on in my life, at least.
On Sunday, I FINALLY had my orientation at the pet shelter! Huzzah!
Aww I got to see all the kitties and it was wonderful! They were sooooo cute. I want one! Lol.
I still have to go back for one training session before I can start to volunteer, but I'm hoping I'll be able to do that on Thursday so I can start right then... since I'll have work for 4 days after that (bleh).
So yay! I'm so very excited to be able to do that soon enough.

And now, for something completely different!!

So I've been having some peculiar themes in my dreams lately.
For one, there's been allot of murder. Haha.
I'm also best friends forever with my former best friend Amy, who I had a falling out with years ago.
Oh, and my ex has been in some recently. Sometimes we're even dating again. Gross! 
Oh hahah, and in one, I fell in love with some half-man half-Transformer dude. Guess I've had Transformers on my mind recently from work, lol.
Haha yes, this all made sense in the dream somehow.
Besides that, I've been dreaming about work allot lately. Which is no bueno. Gods, I can't even get away from work when I sleeps!
I hate you, subconscious!

Huzzah! I'm finally making a post in about... 2 and a half weeks I think? Eep! I can't believe it's been that long!
Honestly... apart from being in Germany and not having internets... I think I've been somewhat avoiding making a post because there's just so much I have to catch up on writing about. Lol, that's silly, though, because it's only going to get even more overwhelming as time goes on. But alas, I'm just glad I'm finally able to catch up on LJ now.

Anyways... what's been going on on the job front... let's see...
Well, before I left for Germany, on Thursday August 27th (the ninth day in the row I was working, btw) I finally had a break down. Lol.
It was over something dumb. This one girl was just being rude. And it happened at the very end of the shift when I was going around doing the nightly 15 minute checks to see if they're in their rooms/sleeping/etc. But I was kind of in an off mood that day, and it really got to me, so I had to run around the corner so no one would see me cry. Lol. Yeah, it sucked. I wanted to go home and die, or at least never come back to work again.
Actually, yesterday, the same girl almost made me cry again. She was being mean because I didn't open this door fast enough since I didn't know I had the right key for it. They still haven't given me all the keys, so I still don't know what I can and can't open. Lol I still don't even have the key to get inside the building. But anyways, yeah, she's a real mean one. I though she was going to be fine since we had a good talk on one of the first days I was working. But since then she hasn't been anything but nasty to me for no apparent reason. Ugh. But  besides her and one other girl, there's nobody else I'm constantly scared of.
But there are about 5 or 6 girls there who do seem to really like me, so that makes up for the scary ones somewhat. Sigh.

Oh and also - I'm for serious working now. Lol not that I wasn't before... but I had to go through 10 days of shadowing before I could be actually responsible for people. So, uh, that's kind of cool, but quite scary at the same time, lol.
I'm still not sure, though, if I'm going to be working with both groups of the girls or just one of them. You see, the girls are divided into two sections there - C wing and D wing - and for all but one day I've been working so far, I've been on C Wing. I dunno, I kind of like C Wing more, even though those two meanies are on C Wing. Oh! And I found out yesterday HK girl got moved over to D Wing. That's kind of sad... she was one of the nice ones.  But there's two other girls over there that seem to like me as well. So I think maybe it would be okay to work over there again sometime. But I don't know.

Well, I still have to write about Germany! But I don't think I'll get to that today.
I really wanted to write about it on Tuesday, my first full day back. But, well, clearly that didn't happen. Hehe. Between re-adjusting to Eastern Standard Time and running many errands, writing about Germany just got lost in the mix! Boo! Oh, however, I did discover through my errands that Michael's now has all of their Halloween goodies out! Hooray! Oh boy, this means I must take a trip to Target sometime soon, so I can begin collecting some Halloween merchandise! Hehehe, Halloween is like Christmas for me in enjoyment.
I will say now about Germany, though, that for the last few days of our journey we had the most beautiful fall-like weather. Ooh it was so very lovely! I really hope fall happens this year. It's seemed to me like the last few years the weather's gone pretty quickly from summer to winter. No fair! 

Anyways, I'm going to go ahead and post this now since it's dinner time... but I shall return later to muse upon LJ further!

So, first day of work...
Well, it was better than I thought it would be.
But, I was expecting it to be suicidally-bad... so... uh... it doesn't take much to beat that! Lol
I think every time I've been there, I've been told by either the staff or the girls or both that it's so very difficult working there, that every day is overwhelming, and that the girls are bad. So, um, that's something to look forward to. Haha...

So, the nice girl I met when I visited the other day was there.
I can't mention their names, but I'll call her Hello Kitty Girl. Since she said she didn't like being called emo in hs.
Well, she hung around me allot today. She's one of the nice ones.
I'm afraid she's going to try to get too close to me, though, and I don't really know how to stop her from doing that.
I think she's going to move to a different campus, though, soon.

Oh godsssss, and this other girl.
She asked me if I had a boyfriend. When I said no, she asked me if I had a girlfriend. When I said no to that, she asked if I wanted a girlfriend. Oh my god, what?? Total deja vu there right back to supermarket guy, lol.
Um, I can't tell yet if that's just how she is, or if she was trying to get me fired, lol.
Oh dear. But that inspired Hello Kitty girl to ask if I was bi. And we're not allowed to talk about anything personal like that, so I just tried to keep telling her that I couldn't talk about that. But holy s kids can sure be persistent! Ahh! 

And then there's the fact that I'm one of the only white people there, between the girls and the staff.
Which isn't a bad thing, no, but I've never been in that position before, so it should be interesting.
I just hope the girls don't respect me any less because I'm white, that's all.
Lol I thought I heard a white racial slur or two yesterday. Uh, so, I don't really know what to do when that happens.

Oh! Hehe, and at the end of the day, right before bed time, this one girl pulled me aside to talk to me.
She gave me kind of a heads up on what to expect, which was quite nice of her. This is one precocious little girl!
She said by the end of the week, I'd be very aggravated.
That some girls will get really close to me and start calling me "mum".
That I need to not have favorites, because that pissed the girls off. Which is understandable.
That I should be strict, but not too strict.
That the best thing to wear is sweatpants, sneakers, and a loose t-shirt in case one of the girls tries to run and AWOL.
That I needed to be on best behavior around staff, because if I cursed or talked about drugs and alcohol, they wouldn't hesitate to write me up. Even though the staff seem to curse quite a bit. But that shouldn't be a problem for me.
So that was very nice of her. Even though it just scared me more about the place, lol.

Honestly, I don't know it I'm going to be able to deal with this job emotionally.
I'm really quite scared I can't do it. I mean, yesterday wasn't awful, but I'm really scared to go back today.
Oh dear, what have I gotten myself into? Lol.

Aaaaaanyway, now for some tidbits from the previous few days that I never got to post...

Hmm well, I think it was Monday or Tuesday night that I chatted with my pal Julie on the phone quite allot. We talked for probably an hour before dinner, then about 2 more hours afterward. So much talkie! Lol.
She was quite upset, and I think she's going to end up breaking up with her boyfriend, lol.
We both shed some tears, and it was a good conversation. I'm lucky to have a pal like her.
You know, I realized that Julie is the first friend I had, that I didn't feel like I was disposable with. Really, all my other friends have seemed to be able to either take me or leave me, even Mindy, but Julie seems to actually need me in her life. I dunno... everyone else, once they're done needing me when we're in the same location or school or whatnot, they seem to not feel the need to keep being pals with me. But it's so nice to have a pal like her who cares about me as much as I care about her. Well, I guess I had that before with my friend Julia from hs. But she got into drugs and really changed into someone I didn't know anymore. 
I just wish Mindy didn't seem to think I was disposable. I dunno, we were texting back and fourth a few days ago, and I said I missed her and asked if I could visit at some point. I guess maybe that was too forward. I really should know better by now than to say something like that to Mindy. But anyway, she never responded to me. Sigh.

Haha oh, and now for a funny story...
A few nights ago, I broke down and went on AIM. Yup, I knew Larry would probably be on there. And you bet he messaged me.
The text that ensued from my going online, was quite amusing.
Well, I was only online shortly, until he told me "if this guy fucked with your head that damn much then how on earth did he seem like a guy you wanted to be with in the 1st place."
Ouch. Well Mr. Larry, I dated him because people like that rarely show their true colors right upfront. Thanks for your bluntness, friend.
So, I just said goodbye and left. Gods there are many things I wanted to tell him. But I made sure to leave before I did that, lol.
A few minutes later, I received this text from dear Larry: "If this is what it's come to then fuck you. I'm trying alright and you never make it easy for the people who give a shit about you. So FUCK YOU."
You know, I didn't think Larry had it in him to talk to me like that.
I'm pretty sure I didn't deserve that, but when things like this happen, I can't help wondering if I did do something bad.

Ho boy, very very incredibly long day, yesterday.
Oh my jesus, I was on the run since I woke up in the morning at... well... 10:30. Eep! Quite late, I knows it! I set my alarms for 6:30, 6:40, and 6:50 to get up for a walk in the morning, but I shooed those away, and went back to sleep forgetting to set another alarm. So... my mum finally woke me up at 10:30. But anyway, I was constantly doing something or other from then until 10:15 or so last night.

We went to the farmers market at like 11:30 after I made some coffee for meself and got ready.
Oh, and we saw the mum of one of my friends from hs at the farmers market, which was kind of cool.
I haven't seen or heard from this pal since I graduated from hs a little over 4 years ago now, but she's a nice girl. Kind of sad we didn't keep in touch. It sounds like she's going to be in DC, which is one of the places I'm looking at for grad school... so that would be nice if I at least knew one person there. I'm still kind of hoping for CA though... that's pretty much as far away as I can get from home without leaving the country! Hmm... maybe I should leave the country. I will think upon that. But anyway, yeah, CA would be lovely, and my good pal Alicia is living out there, so I wouldn't be entirely alone out there either.

Oh so back to my day... letsee... after that, we came home for about 15 minutes to put our groceries away, then my mum and I ran over to the movies with one of my mum's friends who I haven't seen in a really long time. So that was nice.
We saw "The Time Traveler's Wife", which was pretty good. It was oh so very sad though! But I'd say it was about as good as I was expecting it to be. Not spectacular, but I did quite enjoy it.  Although it was not nearly as good as the movie we saw last week, "500 Days of Summer". Oh my jesus, I loved that movie! That one was allot better than I was expecting. It had kind of an indie feel to it, though I'm not sure if it actually was an indie movie. Yup, that's one I'll definitely buy when it comes out.

Haha and for some reason, my mum reminded me of that show, "Captain Planet". 
You know, "Captain planet, he's our hero, gonna take pollution down to zero..." Anyone? Anyone?
Haha I loved that show! I remember one of my neighbors and I had the Captain Planet rings, and we thought we were just awesome!
How did Captain Planet come up? Hmm I think I thought of it when we were talking about astrological signs and stuff, for whatever reason. I think the talk of the water, air, fire, and earth signs reminded me of it.
Oh, my favorite character was always the "Heart" guy, instead of any of the other ones who actually made sense like "earth" or "water", lol. Hey, that guy had a monkey! I think he could telepathically communicate with animals or something? Yup, he was the most awesomest of them all!

Oh boo... so after stopping at two more grocery stores on our way home from the movies yesterday (oh my jesus, we did so much food shopping) I ended up going to the good old Wine and Spirits store and picking up some alkihols.
Yup, yesterday was not a good day of impulse control for me.
Sigh. Oh well. I suppose I don't have to be a total booze nazi and cut it completely out of my life. Or maybe I do. I'm not sure yet, really.
I just had allot of emotions yesterday, and it just gets tiring dealing with them. Yeah, I know, I know, alcohol's not the answer. Yeah, I just have to learn how to deal with my emotions in a healthier way. But it was just too much yesterday, and I needed to get away from them.

So anyway, last night, after the alcohol run, I spent a little over three hours making about 3-4 servings of two different meals. Which we didn't even eat for dinner! Lol, there was a point to it though. Over the summer, I cook for one of my neighbors, and I had to give him 6 meals today. Yup, I forgot I had to hand them over today. So last night I made this raspberry balsamic chicken dish, pork tenderloin, broccoli, spinach, rice, and noodles. It turned out okay, I think. My dad taught me how to use the grill last night for the pork. So I might be able to do that on my own next time, I think. But lol, I don't like when people do things for me, and my dad kept wanting to do stuff for the pork. So I kept saying my usual, "Let me do it! I wanna do it!" that I often say when people try to do things for me. Lol, Mindy's heard that one enough. She knows by now to let me do it myself. Haha, it makes me feel like a little kid or something, but grr, I can do it, so I wanna do it myself! 

So that was my awesomely busy day yesterday. It was pretty fun though, just pretty tiring.
Today's been allot less busy. So far I've spent most of my time cleaning up my room. Lol for some reason I was feeling in a cleaning mood today. And hey, when those come around, which is not very often, I make sure to take advantage of 'em.

I also gave more computer lessons to my dad today. He's been trying to learn how to use email and stuff so he can get in touch with my mum and me while we're in Germany. Lol, I wrote an instruction manual for him just in case he forgets what to do. Haha, I always look for a chance to write stuff down because I love writing! I'm a dork, oh boy I knows it! and my perfectionism sure shows when it comes to writing stuff down. I used to hate writing in pen, because I couldn't change anything that looked less than perfect. Ridiculous!

So, yup, it's almost Sunday evening, and I still haven't done any grad school work. Eh, I'll get around to it tomorrow. Which I said yesterday. And the day before. So, uh, hopefully I mean it this time! Lol.

Oh so apparently they have these night classes around here for various things. My mum thought I might enjoy some of them, but eh, I wasn't really sure. But I looked through the little pamphlet thing they sent us, and there are some pretty cool things in there. Ooh I can re-learn German, or start learning Japanese. Awesome! And they have this class on some kind of Japanese sword-fighting. Awesome again! I heart sword-fighting. I tried taking fencing with Mindy in college, but the class was 3 hours long, and we had to wear these sweaty used helmets which was awesomely gross, so we just stopped going. Eh, I'd rather learn sword-fighting more than fencing, anyways.

I'm thinking I might go for a swim later. It's been disgustingly hot outside today, and inside in the A.C. isn't much better. Plus, my parent's are going to some party at my mum's boss's house, so I'll be alone here and won't have to worry about showing the tats. Or anyone seeing me in a bathing suit. Eep! Not a pleasant sight these days. Oh well, hopefully I'll be able to work off some of those alcohol and spaghetti calories from last night.

Aww, I just heard our neighbor yelling at their two dogs! Poor puppies! They're these really friendly king charles spaniels. They're such very sweet dogs. I'd steal them in a heartbeat if that was moral and I was allowed to have a pet. Lol!

Wow, this entry has been far too long and random. Time to post this and run away, I think!
Well, I'm off to jump in the pool now that the coast is clear! Gods it is far far too hot. Summer should die.

Well, Victoria's Secret, I wear whatever the hell I want to!
Lol. My style tends to change from day to day depending on my mood, but I always try to dress for maximum confidence. Because, uh, I can use all the confidence I can get, haha. It's funny, though, because even though I always try to wear something I feel confident in, I usually still get nervous sometimes when I'm out around people, because I doubt they're as fond of my wardrobe as I am.
I don't know. It's not like my style is all that odd, I suppose. It's usually girly, sometimes a little punkish, and sometimes a mixture of these two. I guess it's also that I don't always dress my age (see: Hello Kitty merchandise) so I wonder if people are judging me for that. Plus, the people I've been around in hs and college have pretty much just been of the preppy variety, so, uh, I never really fit in there. 
Oh, these days, I also get a confidence boost from wearing those clothes that were once "forbidden". Hahaha yes, forbidden, I kid you not! Yup, I'd get in trouble with the ex for wearing particular things. Yeah, tank tops were a big no-no, as were certain t-shirts and collared shirts. Oh, it's just hilarious to me now, though it sucked at the time. Bu yeah, I like wearing those "scandalous" (but actually not scandalous in any way) things now, as kind of an after the fact way to say, "Take that you prick! I'll wear what I want!" Hehe. I joked that my next birthday present from him would have been a burka, but, hah, I was only half joking. I'm sure he would have felt much more comfortable with me wearing one of those.

Woo, and I got around to dying my hair today!
I've been considering just keeping it the natural color for once... haha it's funny, but I didn't even remember what my natural hair color looked like because I've been dying it so damn much these past few years. So just this past month or so I've been able to actually find out what it looks like, haha. Yeah, it's alright. Better than I thought it was actually. There's some kind of... er, I want to say auburn highlights to it? So it's not too plain of a dark brown. But, naturally, I still got bored of it. Anyway, it's much much better now I think! So yay!

Hmm, well it was also my parent's anniversary today.
They didn't do anything special, it was just like any old other day. 
I guess they're going to go out to a nice dinner or something at some point.
They got Chinese food, which I luckily managed to get out of eating. Yeah, it sure is tasty, but I always feel like I've gained about 5 pounds after eating the stuff, haha. Which I just can't stand. It's just so greeeeeasy! So yum, tomato soup and some hummus and crackers for me.

Oh boy, I was so grumpy this morning! Lol. I'm not really sure why, either. I think I was feeling too hot or something. Bleh, the hot weather sure makes me grumpy like not much else can!
But I blasted some music in my car on the way to work, and that helped. Mindless Self Indulgence was just the right amount of cracked-out crazy and a healthy dose of profanity to get me on the right track for the morning. Hehe.
Sooo I got there early as per usual, only to find out that they weren't starting until 10! Boo! But that just gave me time to actually seriously look at grad school stuffs, finally.

So I had 3 travel mug things of coffee this morning. Which I think would probably be the equivalent of 6 cups of coffee? Lol. Which warded away the sleepiness thankfully.
Oh gods, but for lunch, I made two more small cups of coffee there. And let me tell you, that was two too many.
Ho boy, for the rest of the day I was more awake than I wanted to be, and couldn't stop fidgeting and desiring to go for a run around the classroom. Bad coffee! Haha.
As soon as I got home, though, I had a snack and completely crashed as the coffee had started to wear off.
I, uh, slept until dinner time, too... bad Christina!
And oh my jesus, when I woke up I was so horribly confused. Lol, that happens to me from time to time. Haha I had had one of those dreams where I kept waking up and thinking I was in real life, but then I'd wake up again. And again. And again. Ahhh! I hope I'm really in real life now! Lol. I remember the first time I woke up it was like 9 at night. Then I woke up and it was 12 in the afternoon... which either meant I had slept back in time, or I had slept about 20 hours until the next day. Then it was 8:45 and I was driving back from attempting to visit a grad school in Virginia or something. Ahhh! I hate when dreams mess with my reality like this! Lol.

Boo, and of course when I was talking to my parents about grad schools, my dad was telling me that I can't rule out PA ones. And of course I agreed, because you have to do that, hahaha. I'm sure not looking to start trouble with him! But in reality I'm not going anywhere in PA. This state has too many bad memories for me. I really just need a fresh start in a fresh state. I just kind of want to escape from here finally. But of course he would never understand that. My mum does, though.

Hmm yeah, not a very interesting day for me. I'm just very very glad I'm done with this orientation stuffs.
Oh! And I think a morning walk is in order for tomorrow, provided it is not too crappy out.

Oh boy!
So today I got to sit in on a class of the kinds of girls I'll be working with for my job.
Lol almost right away one of the girls was like, ohh you'll never last here. Haha! Good to know. 
Well, I sure hope I can withstand the abuse I'll get from them and not seem like it bothers me. Because I've been told that they're sure good at sniffing out insecurities and picking on those. Eep! Lol, so we'll see how that goes. I mean, people in retail have been able to make me cry without even trying... but a bunch of vicious girls trying to deliberately get me upset? Er, well, I'll just hope for the best!
In reality though, after the initial shock and chaos of being around these girls, it seemed like it might be okay. I think maybe I might be able to do this, possibly.

Aww, and I felt so bad for this one girl.
She was trying to talk to one of the ladies in charge there about how she wasn't sure if she wanted to go home where they'll point out her every flaw or some other place... And the lady wasn't even trying to listen to her! Like, um, that sounds kind of important to me... maybe someone should be listening to her concerns?
Well, I hope she's one of the people I'm watching after, because I'd be listening to stuff like that.

Then there was this one girl who came over and sat next to me.
It seemed like on occasion one or two of the other kids wouldn't be so nice to her.
She said she liked Hello Kitty, too. I guess she saw my band-aid, lol.
She had these Hello Kitty flip-flops that I had wanted to get from Hot Topic.
She was kind of punk-ish or goth-ish. She had these studded bracelets and this collar for a necklace.
She said she had had all kinds of piercings, but she didn't have any now. I wonder why she had to take them out.
She said she was really cold, so I asked why didn't she put on her sweatshirt, and she said she didn't want to because it made her look fat.
She said her favorite time of the day was when she got to go to sleep.
Oh my god, this girl just broke my heart. She looked like she could really just use a friend. I just wanted to be her pal. Hah, for serious I teared up a little on the way home.
I think maybe she made me so sad because she reminded me of myself.
Or maybe I'm just being overly emotional today. That's what I get for forgetting to take my meds, lol. Lesson learned!

But anyway, we're not allowed to be their pals, of course. Hmm, I can see this being a problem if I ever do get to be a therapist. I can see myself wanting to be pals with a patient, because I have a soft spot for the psychologically unsound.
Anyway, I hope she's one of the childrens I get when I work there.

Aaaaanyway, on a completely unrelated side-note... I started compiling a list the other day of all my "deepest darkest secrets" lol, not that they're all that deep or dark, but you get the idea. I figure some day I'll let Mr. or Mrs. right know about all these things, and if they still want to be with me - hell, if they still would even considering being pals with me - then they're a keeper. Although, I can't say I'd blame them if they heard these things and ran in the other direction without a glance back. Yup.

I think maybe I'll look into psychology grad schools again today. My mum helped me the other day to rule out some of the really obscure ones. I have a whole book on them, though, so there are very many I still need to go through. Boo! I made sure to cross out any ones from PA, even though some of the top clinical programs are here. But no way, I'm not going anywhere in PA. I'm definitely ready to get out of this god-forsaken state finally. And I ruled out anything in Texas, haha. Sorry Texas! Nothing personal... I just... don't ever want to live in or around you. Lol. Everything else is fair game though. So overwhelming!

Feeling particularly in the Hello Kitty mood today, haha. And quite excited for no particular reason. But hey, if Christina wants to feel excited, I'm not going to complain, I'll just roll with it.
So I wore my bright green Kitty t-shirt. Lol it's funny that the two times I've worn this shirt thus far various people have complimented it. It's funny to me since, you know, it's a little girl's t-shirt and all. Haha! My mum even likes it, too.
Oh! oh! oh! And I found these Hello Kitty ziplock sangwich and snack bags at the supermarket today! Lol, my mum always finds it humorous that I keep buying these things.
And I got more of my bunny crackers! Annie's is the brand. They're like goldfish, but they're shaped like bunnies, and the box has all kinds of bunny humor on it, so they're basically awesome and infinitely superior to goldfish. Haha. Oh, the things I enjoy!
Also, I got so distracted today in the animal toy section, of all places. Haha! When I was little I had two or three cat and dog toys as my own... I was silly like that. Hey, why should animals get the cool toys and I can't? Lol I can't wait to get a cat so I can get it all kinds of toys to play with! I think, though, I might have more fun playing with them than my pet. I am so very easily entertained sometimes!

Hahaha and oh boy, a rather funny thing happened as we were exiting the supermarket today.
The guy was nice, I'll give him that, but it was just hilarious and random and awkward. This is an approximation of the conversation...

Supermarket Dude: Hey are you still in college?
Me: Uh, I just graduated actually.
Him: Oh yeah? Where'd you go?
Me. Uhh Dickinson?
Him: I haven't heard of that one. Where is that?
Me: Outside of Harrisburg.
Him: Oh yes I've heard of that one. I bet you have a boyfriend?
Me: Hah no, not at the present.
Him: Do you want one?
Me: Uh, I'm good for now, thanks.
Him: I always get that answer. Maybe if I had a six pack and a million dollars and a nice car.
Me: *chuckle*
Him: Well, I just wanted to tell you that you're gorgeous.
Me: *chuckle* thanks *chuckle*
Him: You're pretty just like mommy! ( I was with my mum at the time, haha)

Hahaha. Hilarious. Hey, that was kind of him, but so very awkward! Lol.

Ahh, I was writing this other entry for a few days and still haven't gotten around to posting it. Lol, I'd keep adding more to it every day so by now it's this very long and random mess of words. I'm not sure it's random in a good way, either. Mayhap I'll post it later on, but I'm not sure yet. But if not, I'll try to post something else later on. I might as well turn out some entries while I have the time this weekend!

Woo, rockin' the pigtails today! Yay for looking like I'm 5! Haha.
And I wore my uber awesome scarf today, too. Yes, I'm well aware it's summer, but it is so friggin cold in that room.
Lol the lady instructor said I looked cute and the dude said I looked fancy. I guess I made some good wardrobe choices today.

We played some games today, which was fun.
Though I always hate the getting to know people ones where you have to talk about whatever about yourself. Boo to those!
Also talked about learned helplessness theory today, which just served as a reminder that I'm doomed to bad relationships for the rest of my life. For serious, I will most likely continue to seek out people who will treat me poorly. Haha...

Hrmm what else.
I'm hanging out with JP again at 7.
He apparently had already started drinking when I was still at orientation, so, uh, we'll see how that goes.
Sigh, I don't know if I really feel like it. It'll be good to get out of the house, I suppose. I would kind of rather just go hide somewhere instead, though. Sigh.

Also, ever since I got out from orientation today, I've had this massive bout of anxiety. For no apparent reason. Oh my jesus, I hate this feeling. And I don't even know what I'm so anxious about! Maybe it's all the coffee taking revenge on me or something. Bad coffee! I thought we were pals...

Oh dear, I'm boring even myself right now. Lol. I'll stop before I make this even worse...

Boring boring boring day today.
First day of orientation for Devereux was... well, not as awful as I was expecting, very thankfully. Seems like everything else these days has tended to be far worse than I was expecting. Grr!
Anyways, I was definitely the youngest one there, though. Which was fine, I guess. I tend to be more okay with people younger or older than me as opposed to people my own age. My peers just freak me the eff out! But yeah, I think the youngest people were probably a few years older than me. And there were a bunch of peoples my parents age, as well, lol.
The one interesting thing we talked about though, that was at least potentially psychologyesque, was when we got to discuss the boundaries between the staff and patients. Quite entertaining, really. I even spoke!... well, once... haha.
But oh gods, the rest was so lame. Blah blah blah, confidentiality, blah blah, time cards, blah blah, this is how the internet works.
I was on the verge of falling asleep at one point! I think I was half between sleeping and awakeness, because I don't remember at all what we were talking about. Good thing we got a break and I was able to grab some coffee! I would have never stayed awake the rest of the time.
Hrmm perhaps more sleep is in order tonight... I'm hoping to make it an earlier night, so it's not as much a problem to wake up at 6 tomorrow morning. I'm going to shoot for getting to bed at 10 I think. But, uh, we'll see if that actually happens. Somehow I doubt it will, as I have an aversion to going to bed anytime before midnight.
Who am I kidding... I'm sure I'll get to sleep around 2 am or so.
Bad Christina!

Boo. More flash flooding this morning.
As such, I couldn't go to my pet shelter orientation thing. Rawr!
But the roads were uber flooded, and some were blocked off, so my parents didn't want me trekking out there.
Haha, and my mum saw a fire truck trailing a boat behind it! I guess they had to rescue someone. My mum said the fire truck couldn't even get through the road. So I guess it is best I didn't go out in this mess.
Also, our temporary water supply via those pipes broke with the weather, so we don't have water right now. Lol.
My dad actually went out and fixed it, haha! Of course he did, he's crafty like that. But then the douchebags from the water company came and took it apart, so now it's not working again.
Well, now it's working-ish, but it's coming out of the faucet in bursts and is steaming, which, uh, I don't think it's supposed to do.
Hehe, things like this are fun to me. I hope the power goes out, too! I'm trying to keep my computer charged so that if it does, I still have a few hours of internet time.

My pal from last night also texted me this morning to say he had a good time drinking with me last night.
How nice!
I think we're hanging again Wednesday night. Apparently he has some absinthe he'd like me to try. Oh funsies.
I still have to give my pal Ryan a call. He despises JP, so he'll get a kick out of the fact that we hung out.
Yeah, that kind of thing is rampant in my high school friends. Allot of us have been pals since the fourth grade, and some joined us in sixth grade. We all used to be a wonderfully tight-knit group. But as the years past, they all broke apart, and some started to hate each other. I don't know, I always stayed friendly with everyone, though I lost touch with a bunch of them when I went off to college.

My parent's pals are here today, too, so I've been chatting with the lady and my mum a bit right now.
I'm feeling not as antisocial today, which is nice.
I think I'll start working on GRE stuffs today.
I got these vocab flash cards, so maybe I'll start learning some of those, because I suck at the verbal section of those things.
Maybe I'll give some of the math stuff a go. I'm actually excited for that part, haha. Yay mathematics! Lol I was actually intending on being a math major when I went to college. But then I took Calculus 2, and, well, that's when I became a psych major. Haha.
But this basic math is all fun and peaches for me.

An interesting one, yesterday was.

Well, at the beginning of my day, I discovered they were selling rabbit meat at the farmer's market. $4.99 a pound. Aww, no, bunnies? For food? I don't think I could do that one especially with our bunny friends living in our yard.

As a celebration of the fact that I am now a practicing carnivore, I got these buffalo steak burgers to eat.
And, well, I thought they were just kidding about the buffalo part. Um, like maybe this was some different type of cow burger? Yeah, I'm pretty useless regarding any meat outside of chicken, turkey, and fish.
But no, this was buffalo alright.
I don't know how to cook these things, so while it was cooking I tried poking it to see if it was done, and this bloody mess came oozing out. I felt like I was murdering the darn thing myself!
And it tasted like... well, like it was something that had been living recently. Gosh, meats don't usually taste like death to me, but this one sure did!
Needless to say, this was not the best celebration I've had in my life.

I made a test drive out to the place I'm going for orientation on Monday.
That's about 1 1/2 hours of my life I'll never get back. Boo! It's sure good, though, that this is just where I'm going for orientation, because that's quite the commute.
Eh, well I really needed to, because I know if I had just gone on Monday for the first time I would have done it wrong. I am bad bad bad with directions. Mr. GPS helped muchly though.
And besides, I just got to listen to my music for that amount of time, so that was fine to me.

I went to Borders to get some GRE prep books. That should be... uh... fun.
Ahh and I had to try really hard not to get something other than GRE stuffs.
I'm the kind of person who buys books, reads some of them half-way, neglects to read some of them, and actually finishes relatively few of them.
But I'm still in the middle of one! So I needn't be buying another book until I at least finish that one!
I did end up getting this one, though, that I happened upon in the reference section. It's this little cube of a book that has ideas to help you out of a writer's block. Neeto! I was determined not to get another book, but, well, I just couldn't pass this one up.

Then, at around 10, one of my high school pals texted me randomly and wanted to go out to a bar.
Well, JP's not really a pal. More like a pal of a pal. He's really good friends with my next door neighbor and very good pal, James. Really the only time I've hung out with him is when I'm with James and he drags me along to hang with JP.
Anyway, he got my number from James and gave me a, uh, text.
It was sure nice to finally get out of the house for something other than errands! Lol.
And it was nice to have someone seem to enjoy my company. Maybe I'm not such a loser after all!
And it wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be. Since we're not, you know, really friends and all. But somehow we managed to find things to talk about, so it was cool. Mostly just talked about how it sucked that James moved away.
Haha, apparently James texted him at some point and said something like "Don't hit on her. She's turning lesbian and you'll get turned down."
Haha, go James! That's a good pal, there. Yeah, thank god he didn't hit on me. He's not my type at all and he's kind of, uh, a sleaze ball. Well, he's not that bad I guess. You just have to take his stories with a grain of salt, as there is a good chance he is lying.
He wanted to go back to his house after the bar and watch a movie or something, but, eh, that sounded like less-than-awesome to me. And sounded like it might have less-than-awesome implications. Nah, I just wanted to get back to my secluded room and my computer, thank you! 

Also, Larry was being a whiny bitch because I left him on AIM, and went out with a pal.
Apparently he'd had a shitty day and wanted to take it out on me.
I have no problem talking you out of your shitty state, I quite enjoy doing that for people, but please don't take it out on me, thanks.
Lol sometimes he acts like we're still dating.
Eh, I'm not upset by it though, mostly just amused.

I find myself at yet another time in my life when I have more guy pals than girl pals.
But eh, that's fine by me, guys tend to be less drama-laden then girls. Well, most of them, at least.
I do wish though that I had a best girl pal again. I sure miss that.

So Mr. Weather decided to give us some serious rain while my mum and I were on our way back from the supermarket.
And by serious I mean the roads were flooded.
And by the roads being flooded, I mean we had to drive in the middle of two lane roads at some points because either side was that flooded. My mum was having trouble steering the car at times, and I was preparing myself for my decent to hell. 
Haha, it reminded me of the one time I got home from work last summer after it had been raining like this. There were streams on either side of the street with a pretty fierce current. Apparently the stream wanted my shoe, so I had to go running down the street after it. Damn greedy rain!

So apparently my pal Larry feels neglected because I still haven't given him a new picture of myself and haven't visited him yet.
I was joking with him this morning, like, eh, I'll get around to it maybe sometime I think, but apparently that was a no-no, because neglect is no laughing matter.
Lol I don't know, maybe it's just me, but I don't think not sending someone a picture of myself is neglect.

It really shouldn't be a big deal. I should just get over myself and send a damn picture already. But I think I've just been hesitant because I don't want him to get the wrong idea or something which he might. And I don't want to visit him because he seems to think we'll do things like, in his words, "cuddle on the couch". And well, Larry, I most certainly do not want to do that with you. 
I guess maybe it's in part that I just don't want someone to pressure me into doing something I don't want to. Even if it's as silly as sending a picture.
Maybe it's that I feel like, well, if I give the picture, then what will I have to do next that I don't want to?
You know, putting this in writing, it seems a little irrational, I think. Haha. I think perhaps I'm just being too stubborn.

And now, about the tomato soup.
For serious, this tomato soup is so good, it deserves to have it's name in the title of this entry.
Oh, believe it, it's that good.
It's creamy and herby and pure uncut deliciousness.
If I believed in a god, this would certainly be proof that he existed.

Oh, and at the supermarket today I realized today that I'm just not cut out to be a vegetarian.
I'm a carnivore at heart, and there's no denying it.
Veggie burgers step aside, what I need is some nice juicy cow.
Sorry animals, but you're just so tasty.

Uber long day today.
After about eight and a half hours of my head being poked and prodded and chemically as well as heat burned, I finally made it out of the hair salon with uber straight and very short hair.
Well, not actually short, I don't think. It's still a few inches past my shoulders, but it feels short to me. She took off 6 inches I think. Eep! I kind of miss my long hair, as ratty as it was. But, the new 'do is growing on me. Kind of a little more punk-ish to match my style-ish.

For some reason I always have to do this kind of thing or something similar.
For some reason I'm always feeling compelled to do something to change my appearance.
If I'm happy, sad, bored with my life... have a change, want a change, feeling like things will never change... well, somehow I need to do something that reflects that.
Hence the piercings, tattoos, and variety of hair colors.

For some reason I place undue worth on my appearance.
And while I'd never want to judge anyone else by their appearance, I always judge myself on this. And I always judge myself extremely harshly.
As per usual, I should probably consult one of my numerous psychology text books to gain some insight into this. Haha.
I'm pretty sure, though, it's because I never felt like my personality was worth anything.
And, since I figured I couldn't do anything about my personality, I could at least fix my appearance.
So, I'm on an endless and hopeless journey to perfect the only part of me that I can.

Well, hopefully it's not entirely endless.

Oh gods.
Entire episode of King of the Hill tonight on smoking.
The Hills apparently started smoking again when they found their son smoking and tried to get him to stop by making him smoke the whole carton. So they remembered what they were missing and got back into it themselves.
Ughh, apparently I enjoy torturing myself because I just keep watching it. Haha.

Oh boy, it sure brings back the memories.
All the good conversations I've had with pals while smoking, especially my roomie.
Our smoke breaks were always something only we shared and it was a time when we could open up to each other.
All the memories we've had while smoking... well, those are some of the best.
Sure it sounds silly, but, well, there were some good times we had that are attached to those cigarettes.

Oh dear, I'm trying hard to forget about the two packs I have still.
No Christina! That's a bad Christina!
Here's to hoping I can hold off on them, cause I know I'll hate myself in the morning if I give in to the temptation.

...And by good I mean the opposite of good. Lol.

Silly, clumsy me, I broke the skull mug my roomie gave me for my birthday. Apparently I don't do well with any kind of beverage container she gives me. I broke the wine glass she gave me, too. Lol. This is why I need to have plastic things. I made sure my new wine glass is indestructible plastic, because, well, I'd find a way to destroy it. I'm skillful like that. And I don't even try! Haha.

I tried to make eggs this morning as well. And I did it wrong. That's one to put on the to do list: Learn how to make eggs. Really, it shouldn't be that hard. Like, um, you just have to put an egg in water. 

Bleh, and the morning walks lately have been more of a chore than fun. It's so humid out I feel like claustrophobic. Gross.
And the humidity is a killer on my hair, too. Gods, I sure can't wait until Thursday to finally get my hair re-straightened and cut. Damn you, curly hair! 

I suppose I'll go read or something now.
Though I should probably start looking at GRE stuff.
Maybe I'll take out the guitar later. If I don't play it sometime soon I'll probably forget how to play, again. Lol.